So, everyone wants to know where I've been the last few days. Let me tell you, I have been off my game is where I've been. A few days ago, I offered to return a dvd for my neighbor at a Redbox. For those of you who don't know, Redbox is a DVD vendor that lies in Wal-Mart and McDonald's and a few other select markets where you can find them. Well, the closest one to me is in a... McDonald's. I didn't even think about it, I just walked in there to return the dvd and the next thing I knew, I was at the counter, ordering a McDouble and fries. I didn't even realize I had done it until I was walking out with a small bag containing my items. Then the craziest thing came over me and I sat in my car and wolfed both the burger and the fries like a kid who just stole a candy bar. Then I drove home.
I immediately went into a self loathing cycle of blame and beating myself up. I contemplated throwing up the vile mess that was already making my tongue numb from the sodium content. I felt guilty and I felt like I had let everyone down, including myself. I didn't work out that day or the next and today marks day 3 without working out. I feel like I've lost my mojo entirely and I feel terrible. Not just emotionally, but physically I feel like crap. I can feel myself losing my momentum and I feel like I am powerless to stop it. I need help from my fellow challengers. I need help to find my motivation again. I don't want to lose it now. I don't want to let myself or anyone else down. This is me, calling out to you for motivation and encouragement. Please help me to pull myself up from my bootstraps.
Here are the vlogs from the last couple of days:
and another one about frozen and prepackaged foods:
Take care everyone!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Training a halloween spook master...
So instead of my regular Leah Remini challenge blog today, I'm giving you a sneak peek into Ephiny's Halloween scare training. Not sure how successful it's been thus far, but we're working on it... if only we could get past the giggling and remember the Boo, we'd be golden. The funny thing is that she giggles uncontrollably even when we watch the videos.
Step one: learning the hide and jump out routine.
Step two: learn to say boo.
Step three: Put it all together.
Mix liberally with laughter and enjoy!
*sigh*
Ever teach your child something that you know, without a shadow of a doubt, is going to come back and bite you squarely in the butt at some point? Sadly, this isn't even my first time but you know what? I hope I never learn!
I hope you enjoy watching this as much as we enjoyed making it!
Step one: learning the hide and jump out routine.
Step two: learn to say boo.
Step three: Put it all together.
Mix liberally with laughter and enjoy!
*sigh*
Ever teach your child something that you know, without a shadow of a doubt, is going to come back and bite you squarely in the butt at some point? Sadly, this isn't even my first time but you know what? I hope I never learn!
I hope you enjoy watching this as much as we enjoyed making it!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
A special message to Gay Teens
This is a short blurb to tell you that no matter how crappy things are right now or how bad the bullying gets, IT WILL GET BETTER, I promise you! Once you're out of High School, nobody cares if you're gay, straight, or bisexual. Actually, a few people still will but they're the minority and THEY'RE afraid to speak up in the real world. Anyway, the point is, HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS! It sucked when I was queer in high school and it's going to suck when my 2 year old finally makes it there. It sucks because there are jerks in school now, there were jerks then and there will be jerks in the future. Stand up and endure because it WILL GET SO MUCH BETTER after high school, it's like night and day. So keep the faith and if you ever need to bend somebody's ear, I'm here and I'll listen.
IT GETS AWESOME! You will find someone and you will fall in love, you will have your heart broken and you will have friends hold you as you cry it out. You will get disgustingly drunk and hit on somebody you are not attracted to. Your friends won't let you go through with it. Your best friend will tell you that you should. Why? Because it's funny and you will do the same thing to them one day. You will have an amazing group of friends that love you and enemies that you all tear up behind their backs. You will be the designated driver sometimes and the designated drunk at other times. You will be the best dressed in your group sometimes and you will take fashion risks that sometimes don't work out. You will never have to deal with stupid jocks again except to say, "I'd like fries with that" or "I think I want the leather seats and the sport package."
Boys - Women will flock to you and will flatter you on a regular basis. They will tell you that you are beautiful and perfect and will take you with them shopping. They will ask for your opinion and will wait with bated breath until you give it to them. Those yutzes that are bullying you now will be completely jealous of you later because you will have the power to tell the hotties NOT to date them and they will listen.
Girls - Men will be obsessed with you. I'm so sorry. It will be incredibly amusing though. Women will be curious about you and will want you, even if they don't admit it to themselves. You will find a girl that you will fall head over heels in love with and she will love you. She will break your heart and you will fall in love again. You will have a whole group of friends that "get" you.
THE BEST TIMES OF YOUR LIFE ARE JUST A FEW SHORT YEARS OF HELL AWAY!
We want you to be around for that.
So that you know I'm not talking out of my butt, here's my story (the truncated version):
You know, the funny thing is, when I said I would do this, I didn't think it would be this hard to talk about it. But I started writing and pretty soon I started really remembering. It REALLY sucked. The more I remembered, the less I wanted to write it out. So between last night and today, I've weatherized my whole apartment, fixed the hinges on all the doors and even watched Spongebob with my daughter, all to avoid doing this. But my word is my bond and when I tell somebody I'll do something, I do it... eventually. So here we go.
To say that I've been bullied in my lifetime, is to understate things just a little. I was bullied because I was overweight, I was picked on because I was smart, I was picked on because we were Jehovah's Witnesses and I was beat up for being queer. I've had my nose broken and my stomach stomped on, I've had My own father call me 'a slut and a whore that belonged on the street down by the river with the rest of the bums' after I'd been raped by a stranger in a park, I've been dragged across campus by my hair, I've been cut and had a smiley face branded on my thigh, I've been spit on and I've been burned by lit cigarette butts that were flicked at my back when I followed the advice I had been given by the school counselor to "Just kept walking and ignore them." There was even a girl that pretended to like me so that she could go to the school counselor and say that I harassed her in hopes that I would get kicked out of school for it. Luckily for me, one of her friends came forward and told the school counselor about the 'plan'. Those are just the worst of them. Countless name calling, tripping, attempts at tripping, singing derisive songs, one almost noteworthy swirly...
Some of that sounds kind of funny, but I still have scars from 'cutting' and from trying to slit my wrists when I thought I couldn't take it anymore. Thankfully, I didn't know you were supposed to cut them lengthwise. I even tried overdosing myself on painkillers and sleeping pills once. Thankfully, my stomach couldn't handle all the Vicodin I put in it and I vomited most of it up in my sleep. Truth be told, I was kinda pissed when I woke up the next day.
The funny thing is that the straw that broke the camel's back was one of the least violent of all of my experiences. A group of black girls (they thought they were a gang, but there were only four of them, so I didn't think it counted... I still don't) and their ringleader followed me around the dorm one weekend calling me "Dykey Wykey." Believe it or not, that was what it took for me to decide that I'd had enough. I spun around and got right up in the ringleader's face and said, "What's up 'Straighty Weighty'? You wanna go, let's go, 'cuz I'm sick of this crap."
I was scared to death but I was serious. At that point, I figured that I'd had my @ss kicked all over campus so much that if I was going to get it kicked again, it was going to be on MY terms, for once. Now, I'm not condoning violence as a solution at all whatsoever and in fact I didn't actually end up having to fight her (and thank the Gods for it, 'cuz I'm not a fighter and I would have gotten my @ss kicked all around the block) because all of her 'girls' started laughing their @sses off and she took a step back, (I was literally right in her face, like nose to nose, I couldn't even focus on her) nodded her head and said, "You know what, little girl? You're all right." Then they left. It was like a miracle. Seriously.
I'm not saying she and I were all buddy buddy after that. We weren't, not by a long shot. But she did leave me alone and that, to me, was a miracle in and of itself.
The thing is, I came out at 17 when nobody was coming out as a teen. Like many other queers, once I figured out that I was a lesbian, I was all about telling EVERYBODY! All of a sudden the world made sense and I just didn't care who knew or what the consequences were. No, that's not accurate. I didn't think about whether or not there would be consequences. It never occurred to me until it was much too late, that people would hate on me or hurt me just because I like girls and when I did finally figure it out, it hit me really hard.
I wouldn't recommend doing a lot of the things that I did. I attempted suicide, I got in one of my bully's faces, I ran away from home... and if I hadn't had help, I wouldn't be here today. It's not like I survived on my own. But, I'm putting my story up here on this FB page for those who are bullied to read and maybe to reach out to somebody or let somebody reach out to them. Because it was somebody reaching out to me and not taking "no" or "go f*@# yourself" for an answer, that really saved my life and allowed my little Ninny to have a life.
If there's nobody in your town that you can go to or talk to, you see my page, my name and everything up here. I will happily listen and do what I can to help you. I know there's this whole "It gets better" campaign out there and you're probably sick of hearing it but it's true. I know it doesn't seem like it and for you, right now, it probably doesn't feel true. But it does get better. A whole lot better.
I'm putting this up here, not for me but for those people out there who may be going through something similar right now. I KNOW how much it sucks right now, I REALLY do. I've lived it. Maybe not the exact same thing that you're going through but similar and just as painful, so please believe me when I tell you,
IT
GETS
BETTER.
WAY
WAY
OMG
WAY
BETTER.
IT GETS AWESOME! You will find someone and you will fall in love, you will have your heart broken and you will have friends hold you as you cry it out. You will get disgustingly drunk and hit on somebody you are not attracted to. Your friends won't let you go through with it. Your best friend will tell you that you should. Why? Because it's funny and you will do the same thing to them one day. You will have an amazing group of friends that love you and enemies that you all tear up behind their backs. You will be the designated driver sometimes and the designated drunk at other times. You will be the best dressed in your group sometimes and you will take fashion risks that sometimes don't work out. You will never have to deal with stupid jocks again except to say, "I'd like fries with that" or "I think I want the leather seats and the sport package."
Boys - Women will flock to you and will flatter you on a regular basis. They will tell you that you are beautiful and perfect and will take you with them shopping. They will ask for your opinion and will wait with bated breath until you give it to them. Those yutzes that are bullying you now will be completely jealous of you later because you will have the power to tell the hotties NOT to date them and they will listen.
Girls - Men will be obsessed with you. I'm so sorry. It will be incredibly amusing though. Women will be curious about you and will want you, even if they don't admit it to themselves. You will find a girl that you will fall head over heels in love with and she will love you. She will break your heart and you will fall in love again. You will have a whole group of friends that "get" you.
THE BEST TIMES OF YOUR LIFE ARE JUST A FEW SHORT YEARS OF HELL AWAY!
We want you to be around for that.
So that you know I'm not talking out of my butt, here's my story (the truncated version):
You know, the funny thing is, when I said I would do this, I didn't think it would be this hard to talk about it. But I started writing and pretty soon I started really remembering. It REALLY sucked. The more I remembered, the less I wanted to write it out. So between last night and today, I've weatherized my whole apartment, fixed the hinges on all the doors and even watched Spongebob with my daughter, all to avoid doing this. But my word is my bond and when I tell somebody I'll do something, I do it... eventually. So here we go.
To say that I've been bullied in my lifetime, is to understate things just a little. I was bullied because I was overweight, I was picked on because I was smart, I was picked on because we were Jehovah's Witnesses and I was beat up for being queer. I've had my nose broken and my stomach stomped on, I've had My own father call me 'a slut and a whore that belonged on the street down by the river with the rest of the bums' after I'd been raped by a stranger in a park, I've been dragged across campus by my hair, I've been cut and had a smiley face branded on my thigh, I've been spit on and I've been burned by lit cigarette butts that were flicked at my back when I followed the advice I had been given by the school counselor to "Just kept walking and ignore them." There was even a girl that pretended to like me so that she could go to the school counselor and say that I harassed her in hopes that I would get kicked out of school for it. Luckily for me, one of her friends came forward and told the school counselor about the 'plan'. Those are just the worst of them. Countless name calling, tripping, attempts at tripping, singing derisive songs, one almost noteworthy swirly...
Some of that sounds kind of funny, but I still have scars from 'cutting' and from trying to slit my wrists when I thought I couldn't take it anymore. Thankfully, I didn't know you were supposed to cut them lengthwise. I even tried overdosing myself on painkillers and sleeping pills once. Thankfully, my stomach couldn't handle all the Vicodin I put in it and I vomited most of it up in my sleep. Truth be told, I was kinda pissed when I woke up the next day.
The funny thing is that the straw that broke the camel's back was one of the least violent of all of my experiences. A group of black girls (they thought they were a gang, but there were only four of them, so I didn't think it counted... I still don't) and their ringleader followed me around the dorm one weekend calling me "Dykey Wykey." Believe it or not, that was what it took for me to decide that I'd had enough. I spun around and got right up in the ringleader's face and said, "What's up 'Straighty Weighty'? You wanna go, let's go, 'cuz I'm sick of this crap."
I was scared to death but I was serious. At that point, I figured that I'd had my @ss kicked all over campus so much that if I was going to get it kicked again, it was going to be on MY terms, for once. Now, I'm not condoning violence as a solution at all whatsoever and in fact I didn't actually end up having to fight her (and thank the Gods for it, 'cuz I'm not a fighter and I would have gotten my @ss kicked all around the block) because all of her 'girls' started laughing their @sses off and she took a step back, (I was literally right in her face, like nose to nose, I couldn't even focus on her) nodded her head and said, "You know what, little girl? You're all right." Then they left. It was like a miracle. Seriously.
I'm not saying she and I were all buddy buddy after that. We weren't, not by a long shot. But she did leave me alone and that, to me, was a miracle in and of itself.
The thing is, I came out at 17 when nobody was coming out as a teen. Like many other queers, once I figured out that I was a lesbian, I was all about telling EVERYBODY! All of a sudden the world made sense and I just didn't care who knew or what the consequences were. No, that's not accurate. I didn't think about whether or not there would be consequences. It never occurred to me until it was much too late, that people would hate on me or hurt me just because I like girls and when I did finally figure it out, it hit me really hard.
I wouldn't recommend doing a lot of the things that I did. I attempted suicide, I got in one of my bully's faces, I ran away from home... and if I hadn't had help, I wouldn't be here today. It's not like I survived on my own. But, I'm putting my story up here on this FB page for those who are bullied to read and maybe to reach out to somebody or let somebody reach out to them. Because it was somebody reaching out to me and not taking "no" or "go f*@# yourself" for an answer, that really saved my life and allowed my little Ninny to have a life.
If there's nobody in your town that you can go to or talk to, you see my page, my name and everything up here. I will happily listen and do what I can to help you. I know there's this whole "It gets better" campaign out there and you're probably sick of hearing it but it's true. I know it doesn't seem like it and for you, right now, it probably doesn't feel true. But it does get better. A whole lot better.
I'm putting this up here, not for me but for those people out there who may be going through something similar right now. I KNOW how much it sucks right now, I REALLY do. I've lived it. Maybe not the exact same thing that you're going through but similar and just as painful, so please believe me when I tell you,
IT
GETS
BETTER.
WAY
WAY
OMG
WAY
BETTER.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
DAYS 25 & 26: TOO MUCH SOLIDARITY?
So yesterday, I did not do my cardio. I know, I know. In my defense, I was not feeling well and had been up with Ninny throwing up since 3:30 am. When she finally went down for a nap, I had to use that time to do homework for my accelerated Human Sexuality class. Why am I telling you all this? Because I made a promise to be honest and forthcoming in these blogs and vlogs and I intend to keep that promise. I was so swamped with work I didn't even have time to make a vlog, let alone upload one, post it, make it viral and answer questions. Speaking of questions, somebody asked me again today if Leah knew about my blog and my vlog and my Challenge. Of course she does. I would not have done something like this without telling her and one of my earlier blogs addressed just that. Leah has read the blog, she may or may not have seen the vlogs and I highly doubt that she keeps up with it at all but she does know about it.
So, I have a little gripe about my neighbor. I love him but I think he's trying to sabotage my success because that little buggar keeps bringing me food that is nowhere near my diet. Hell, it's not even in the same county as my diet. He's a total sweetheart and I love him to pieces but I can't eat this stuff! If anybody has any suggestions of what to do without hurting his feelings, please, I am all ears.
Today, Ninny and I worked out together, it was so cute, when I was doing the walking up and down on my hands move, she was all crouched in front of me with her head sideways, trying to see me under my hair and then she wanted to sit on me while I was doing my push ups.
I totally panicked today and asked my sister to come and take Ninny for a few hours because I thought I had three things due today and as it turned out not a one of them was actually due today. One is due Tuesday, one Wednesday and one Saturday. I hate panicking for nothing. The good news is that I got a lot of studying done and am almost a little bit ahead of the game now! Almost.
Oh and one more thing! I learned this weekend that if you are going to make pasta, don't make extra for the next day. Make the next day's pasta the next day because trust and believe that if you're eating single serving portions and you have extra laying around ready to eat, it's not going to make it to the next day anyway. Make one serving for just you or two servings if you have yourself and somebody else to cook for. Don't even make extra for them. They can eat one portion, just like you and if they don't like it, I'm sure they know where to find Taco Bell or maybe Burger King, so they can have it their way.
Anyway, have a good night and enjoy my vlog for today:
And as always, if you're reading/watching and keeping up, why aren't you doing your cardio as well?
Get Up, Get Motivated and JOIN US!
So, I have a little gripe about my neighbor. I love him but I think he's trying to sabotage my success because that little buggar keeps bringing me food that is nowhere near my diet. Hell, it's not even in the same county as my diet. He's a total sweetheart and I love him to pieces but I can't eat this stuff! If anybody has any suggestions of what to do without hurting his feelings, please, I am all ears.
Today, Ninny and I worked out together, it was so cute, when I was doing the walking up and down on my hands move, she was all crouched in front of me with her head sideways, trying to see me under my hair and then she wanted to sit on me while I was doing my push ups.
I totally panicked today and asked my sister to come and take Ninny for a few hours because I thought I had three things due today and as it turned out not a one of them was actually due today. One is due Tuesday, one Wednesday and one Saturday. I hate panicking for nothing. The good news is that I got a lot of studying done and am almost a little bit ahead of the game now! Almost.
Oh and one more thing! I learned this weekend that if you are going to make pasta, don't make extra for the next day. Make the next day's pasta the next day because trust and believe that if you're eating single serving portions and you have extra laying around ready to eat, it's not going to make it to the next day anyway. Make one serving for just you or two servings if you have yourself and somebody else to cook for. Don't even make extra for them. They can eat one portion, just like you and if they don't like it, I'm sure they know where to find Taco Bell or maybe Burger King, so they can have it their way.
Anyway, have a good night and enjoy my vlog for today:
And as always, if you're reading/watching and keeping up, why aren't you doing your cardio as well?
Get Up, Get Motivated and JOIN US!
Friday, October 15, 2010
DAYS 22 & 23: EASY WORKOUT MY BIG WHITE BUTT
Oh my god. So I mistakenly thought that Richard Simmons' workout video "Sweating to the Oldies" would be a cinch compared to the skinny girl workouts that I've been doing. I don't think I've been this wrong since I was telling everyone while I was pregnant that my life wasn't going to change that much, I was just going to have another person to tote around with me... yeah, right. You other moms know what I'm talking about. Maybe not exactly but you know. When you were pregnant with your first (or only) child, you had this sunshine view of how everything was going to be, minus the diapers of course, because you mistakenly thought that the diapers would be the biggest obstacle that you would have to overcome, right? I seriously remember telling people, "Seriously, nothing's going to change. I'm still going to be me, It'll be just like when I was a step parent, no big deal." I seriously can't think of one thing in my life that hasn't changed. Well, my name is the same I guess.
So anyway, I'm working out today and I get Ninny out of her crib and pull a muscle in my upper arm and put a thermacare thing on it that's been on there all day, helping to keep the muscles relaxed and warm.
Argh! I just found out that this didn't post the other day! Dangit! I had to go back and rescue a saved draft. Now I don't remember what i was saying after this point, so I'm just going to post my vlogs and I will catch up with y'all later!
Day 22:
Day 23:
As always, hello to my fellow challengers and much love to Leah!
So anyway, I'm working out today and I get Ninny out of her crib and pull a muscle in my upper arm and put a thermacare thing on it that's been on there all day, helping to keep the muscles relaxed and warm.
Argh! I just found out that this didn't post the other day! Dangit! I had to go back and rescue a saved draft. Now I don't remember what i was saying after this point, so I'm just going to post my vlogs and I will catch up with y'all later!
Day 22:
Day 23:
As always, hello to my fellow challengers and much love to Leah!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
DAYS 20 & 21: FORGIVE ME FOLLOWERS, FOR I HAVE SINNED... A LOT
So this was a hard weekend, diet-wise, for me. All you can eat shrimp at Red Lobster, All you can eat sushi at Sushi Katsu and a fruit roll up that was surprisingly irresistable. It's that time of the month again... ladies, YOU know what I'm talking about... and I'm craving chocolate like a crack addict craves a rock. Seriously! I don't know how much longer I can resist and Chelsea, you were right, those Granola crisp things are great but not cutting it... chocolate-wise. I'm exhausted and I did not get my full workout done today. I got maybe two thirds of the way through it and then Ninny woke up full on crying, which is NOT like her. Seriously, she is quite possibly the happiest baby girl alive... 90% of the time and she sleeps like a dog, so for her to wake up full on crying inconsolably was very highly unusual and disturbing. It took me a full 30 minutes of holding her and rocking her and walking with her to get her back to sleep and even then I had to put her down in my bed. Don't worry, once she was good and out again, I put her back in her crib. Anyway, the much belated vlog for day 20:
and day 21, also known as the incomprehensible vlog:
Woot Woot! If you're with us, keep going, if not... why not?
and day 21, also known as the incomprehensible vlog:
Woot Woot! If you're with us, keep going, if not... why not?
Sunday, October 10, 2010
DAYS 18 & 19: A SUPER BUSY WEEKEND!
I wrote a whole big blog yesterday and thought I posted it but when I looked today, it turned out it didn't post. Crud. Anyway, Saturday and Sunday I was super busy with school, I had a lab, tests, discussions and a paper all due either Saturday or Sunday. Wow! So glad it's over! One more week of my accelerated class and then life settles down a little bit. At that point I only have three classes (instead of four) right up through December. Woot Woot! Life is good. Busy but good. Thanks everybody for listening, reading and watching. If I really have inspired anybody, I'm glad and I hope you find your motivation and keep gong with this because it's worth it and SO ARE YOU!
And the vlog:
Keep on doing it! I have faith in all of us, we can do this! We can succeed! Solidarity!
And the vlog:
Keep on doing it! I have faith in all of us, we can do this! We can succeed! Solidarity!
Saturday, October 9, 2010
DAYS 16 & 17: I FEEL GOOD, NANANANANANANA
So, like 1/3 of the people that watch my video logs are actually reading my blog, so I've decided to blog every other day instead of every day. I may change my mind later but for now, well, there ya go.
Yesterday was a great day! I did a 40 minute workout that kicked my butt but I felt very accomplished about it. Okay, so technically it was a 44 minute workout but I kept up with at least 40 minutes of it. Then I found a groovy cool recipe for pumpkin soup that I'm going to try ( http://www.thinandhealthy.com/blog/2009/10/fall-flavors-for-weight-loss-fresh-pumpkin-soup-recipe/) and thank you to Dawn Sandomeno for putting it on her blog and for following me on Twitter! Anyway, without further ado, here are the vlogs for the 16th and 17th. I hope you enjoy!
That's the 16th... and then there came the 17th:
Oh wait... day 17, that's still today... ish. I also had a friend over for dinner, but I'll do a special blog on that tomorrow or Sunday...
One thing that did occur to me, however, is this: When you look at the food your child left on his or her plate and you contemplate eating it yourself so as not to let it go to waste, just remember, your body can only use so much fuel, anything after that point is going to waste... so it's either going to waste in the trash can or it's going to waste on your waist.
Anyway, have a great night and we'll talk to you tomorrow!
Yesterday was a great day! I did a 40 minute workout that kicked my butt but I felt very accomplished about it. Okay, so technically it was a 44 minute workout but I kept up with at least 40 minutes of it. Then I found a groovy cool recipe for pumpkin soup that I'm going to try ( http://www.thinandhealthy.com/blog/2009/10/fall-flavors-for-weight-loss-fresh-pumpkin-soup-recipe/) and thank you to Dawn Sandomeno for putting it on her blog and for following me on Twitter! Anyway, without further ado, here are the vlogs for the 16th and 17th. I hope you enjoy!
That's the 16th... and then there came the 17th:
Oh wait... day 17, that's still today... ish. I also had a friend over for dinner, but I'll do a special blog on that tomorrow or Sunday...
One thing that did occur to me, however, is this: When you look at the food your child left on his or her plate and you contemplate eating it yourself so as not to let it go to waste, just remember, your body can only use so much fuel, anything after that point is going to waste... so it's either going to waste in the trash can or it's going to waste on your waist.
Anyway, have a great night and we'll talk to you tomorrow!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
DAY 15 - EARLY BLOG CUZ I'M ANNOYED
So, I'm doing my dancing workout this morning and I start to think to myself...
You know who I miss? Richard Simmons. That queer SOB understood that some of us are just starting out and we can't bounce and wiggle and jump and bippity bop our fat asses all around the house. some of us have size 46F boobs that HURT when you bounce them and it's HARD to find a sports bra that A. fits and B. actually keeps huge boobs immobile. Ya know? I'm just saying. Jillian whatever her name is has a good thing going with Biggest Loser and all but he was supportive, not mean. He encouraged, he didn't get mad at people and it worked. You know what else that buggar had? Fat women working out with him. Not those skinny women that none of us that are working out really look like.
I was told today that I'm inspiring people. I don't know if that's true or not and to be brutally honest, whether I am or not, it's not going to change my travel plans. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to think that I am helping people, but realistically, I'm doing this to improve my life and even if nobody else comes along for the ride, I'm still going to take my journey. Be that as it may, I'd love it if YOU would come along. If you ARE out there and you are reading this, tell me. Leave a comment, you can do it anonymously. Tell me what you're doing in your life. Hell, just tell me a story. I don't care. It would just be nice to know that somebody is out there, with me.
Big Hugs and lots of love, people.
See you tomorrow!
You know who I miss? Richard Simmons. That queer SOB understood that some of us are just starting out and we can't bounce and wiggle and jump and bippity bop our fat asses all around the house. some of us have size 46F boobs that HURT when you bounce them and it's HARD to find a sports bra that A. fits and B. actually keeps huge boobs immobile. Ya know? I'm just saying. Jillian whatever her name is has a good thing going with Biggest Loser and all but he was supportive, not mean. He encouraged, he didn't get mad at people and it worked. You know what else that buggar had? Fat women working out with him. Not those skinny women that none of us that are working out really look like.
I was told today that I'm inspiring people. I don't know if that's true or not and to be brutally honest, whether I am or not, it's not going to change my travel plans. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to think that I am helping people, but realistically, I'm doing this to improve my life and even if nobody else comes along for the ride, I'm still going to take my journey. Be that as it may, I'd love it if YOU would come along. If you ARE out there and you are reading this, tell me. Leave a comment, you can do it anonymously. Tell me what you're doing in your life. Hell, just tell me a story. I don't care. It would just be nice to know that somebody is out there, with me.
Big Hugs and lots of love, people.
See you tomorrow!
DAYS 13 & 14: I AM A WORKOUT NINJA... WITH COMPUTER ISSUES...
Okay folks! Yesterday I had issues getting into blogger and a sick baby to contend with, so no blog yesterday, but I did do a video log:
Found a GREAT new workout that is only fifteen minutes long but Good Gods did it make me sweat bullets!
I got back on track yesterday and it was good.
Today, I am a WORKOUT NINJA! I did my fifteen minute dancing workout this morning and then again this evening, based on a theory that if I workout and shower before bed I might sleep better. So yes, I did TWO workouts today because I am a bad@ss workout ninja! Ninny watched me do the second workout and in the middle thought it would be great to watch me workout from between my feet. So I danced her over to the couch so that she could watch without getting us both killed.
We had eggs this morning for breakfast, thank the Gods. I just don't know what else to have for breakfast. I need to work on that. The oatmeal is okay but it gets old and we can't do eggs every morning. Any ideas?
I made an awesome dish for supper, details are at the end of the video log but it had chicken, asparagus, yellow squash, zucchini, sweet onion and red peppers along with whole wheat rigatoni, basil, balsamic, garlic, paprika and cayenne pepper. I mixed in some generic white sauce, just a bit, I looked and it was 1/2 cup for the whole pot and sprinkled about a tablespoon of Italian cheese mix on top. Heavenly. Lots of veggies, whole wheat carbs and about 10g of fat. Not too shabby.
I welcome questions, comments and suggestions from anyone out there. What's worked for you? What hasn't? Who inspires you to do bigger, better things with your life? If you could change something in your life, what would you change? Why haven't you done it yet? If you're watching, reading, following along at all, talk to me, tell me what you're thinking. If you're going to be mean, however, at least be funny. When I say funny, I mean funny that everyone gets, not just you. Run it past a friend first, see if they laugh.
Son of a biscuit eater! I hit publish post then got up, got a glass of water and went to bed. Turns out it didn't post last night! Argh! For the love of freaking computers! Let's try this again...
If you're reading this, please leave me a comment!
Found a GREAT new workout that is only fifteen minutes long but Good Gods did it make me sweat bullets!
I got back on track yesterday and it was good.
Today, I am a WORKOUT NINJA! I did my fifteen minute dancing workout this morning and then again this evening, based on a theory that if I workout and shower before bed I might sleep better. So yes, I did TWO workouts today because I am a bad@ss workout ninja! Ninny watched me do the second workout and in the middle thought it would be great to watch me workout from between my feet. So I danced her over to the couch so that she could watch without getting us both killed.
We had eggs this morning for breakfast, thank the Gods. I just don't know what else to have for breakfast. I need to work on that. The oatmeal is okay but it gets old and we can't do eggs every morning. Any ideas?
I made an awesome dish for supper, details are at the end of the video log but it had chicken, asparagus, yellow squash, zucchini, sweet onion and red peppers along with whole wheat rigatoni, basil, balsamic, garlic, paprika and cayenne pepper. I mixed in some generic white sauce, just a bit, I looked and it was 1/2 cup for the whole pot and sprinkled about a tablespoon of Italian cheese mix on top. Heavenly. Lots of veggies, whole wheat carbs and about 10g of fat. Not too shabby.
I welcome questions, comments and suggestions from anyone out there. What's worked for you? What hasn't? Who inspires you to do bigger, better things with your life? If you could change something in your life, what would you change? Why haven't you done it yet? If you're watching, reading, following along at all, talk to me, tell me what you're thinking. If you're going to be mean, however, at least be funny. When I say funny, I mean funny that everyone gets, not just you. Run it past a friend first, see if they laugh.
Son of a biscuit eater! I hit publish post then got up, got a glass of water and went to bed. Turns out it didn't post last night! Argh! For the love of freaking computers! Let's try this again...
If you're reading this, please leave me a comment!
Monday, October 4, 2010
DAY 12 - STILL SICK BUT GETTING BETTER
Okay, so mostly today I rested. I'm still not 100% but so that I wouldn't beat myself up, I did do an abbreviated workout. I did a fifteen minute pilates workout and kept up pretty well, except for that whole find your balance point and rock thing. I also discovered that my Netflix has a whole boatload of workout videos. So, I plopped the ones that seemed to be the most fun and/or easiest onto my queue. Okay, I'm totally typing in my sleep at this point, I'm exhausted and I just typed prisoner for some reason that made sense to my subconscious but it didn't make any sense to me. Anyway, I'm off to go reclaim my position in my own bed from a 21 month old sick baby, Good night!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
DAY 11 - SICK AS A DOG
I feel like crap today. Either I'm coming down with something or eating pizza after a week and a half of eating properly has thrown my body off kilter. Either way, I have tried six times to do my workout and all six times I have failed because of having to run to the bathroom. I am not one to admit defeat easily but I think today is going to be a forced day off. I just made attempt number six and it's almost 10:30 at night. I suck today and pizza is very definitely NOT in my dining repertoire any longer, no matter how clever I think I am with the saving up the cabs and fat. It was NOT clever and I feel like sh*t today.
Whether I'm sick because of the pizza or I'm sick because I'm coming down with something, either way I feel like a damn failure today because I can't get one thirty minute workout in. I totally feel like I've let myself down.
The good news is that I can learn from my mistakes and not make them, or worse related ones, again. If this is what pizza, which in the grand scheme of fast food items is not that bad, does to me, just IMAGINE what would happen if I tried to eat McDonald's or GodsForbidTacoBell! I think they just might kill me.
So chalk today up to Hell on Earth and leave it at that.
Oh and for those of you wondering if Leah is still around, the answer to that is an emphatic yes. She's getting busier and busier everyday but she's still around. Very stand up gal, she is. Classy, intelligent, kind, well spoken and real. All that and she's gorgeous, too.
Gotta love her!
Short, sweet and to the point video log today, I feel like crap and I wanna go to bed.
Night everybody, see you tomorrow!
Whether I'm sick because of the pizza or I'm sick because I'm coming down with something, either way I feel like a damn failure today because I can't get one thirty minute workout in. I totally feel like I've let myself down.
The good news is that I can learn from my mistakes and not make them, or worse related ones, again. If this is what pizza, which in the grand scheme of fast food items is not that bad, does to me, just IMAGINE what would happen if I tried to eat McDonald's or GodsForbidTacoBell! I think they just might kill me.
So chalk today up to Hell on Earth and leave it at that.
Oh and for those of you wondering if Leah is still around, the answer to that is an emphatic yes. She's getting busier and busier everyday but she's still around. Very stand up gal, she is. Classy, intelligent, kind, well spoken and real. All that and she's gorgeous, too.
Gotta love her!
Short, sweet and to the point video log today, I feel like crap and I wanna go to bed.
Night everybody, see you tomorrow!
Friday, October 1, 2010
DAY 10 - DOUBLE DIGITS!!!
I made it to the double digits!!! So we celebrated reaching double digits by eating almost zero carbs all day (except some berries) and we had a building neighbor party. We ordered pizza and watched The Spy Next Door. I thought I had prepared for having pizza by keeping my caloric intake so low all day and keeping my carbs super low. The thing is, I don't think celebrating a diet accomplishment with crappy food is the right thing to do. It just didn't FEEL like I was celebrating. It kind of felt a little like I was backpaddling. I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting but I don't think pizza is in my edible future anymore. Oh well. I think I can say that I have eaten enough pizza in my lifetime, so it's not like it's something I've missed out on.
I have had 36 years of eating whatever I wanted and I have the extra weight to prove it. I need to remember that if I'm going to change my life, I need to change my thinking about things as well. This is totally uncharted territory for me but I think for the next 30 odd years I'm going to do the opposite. I'm going to eat for fuel more so than flavor. At least for a while. I've tasted all of the unhealthy foods (pretty much) that are available in the world. I've tried everything and now it's time to try being healthy; looking and feeling good in my own skin.
The point is, I think I made a mistake yesterday by rewarding myself with food. I think next time I will reward myself with a nice, hot bubble bath and a book AWAY from Ninny. Or reward myself with a trip to the movies or the museum and ask my neighbor to watch Ninny for me... Or maybe I'll reward myself with a trip to Tattered cover. That's how my mom used to reward me when I was a kid... worked then, just might work now!
Anyway, lesson learned. See you tomorrow.
I have had 36 years of eating whatever I wanted and I have the extra weight to prove it. I need to remember that if I'm going to change my life, I need to change my thinking about things as well. This is totally uncharted territory for me but I think for the next 30 odd years I'm going to do the opposite. I'm going to eat for fuel more so than flavor. At least for a while. I've tasted all of the unhealthy foods (pretty much) that are available in the world. I've tried everything and now it's time to try being healthy; looking and feeling good in my own skin.
The point is, I think I made a mistake yesterday by rewarding myself with food. I think next time I will reward myself with a nice, hot bubble bath and a book AWAY from Ninny. Or reward myself with a trip to the movies or the museum and ask my neighbor to watch Ninny for me... Or maybe I'll reward myself with a trip to Tattered cover. That's how my mom used to reward me when I was a kid... worked then, just might work now!
Anyway, lesson learned. See you tomorrow.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
DAY 9 - A SUPER STRESSFUL DAY!
Okay folks, so today (which is actually yesterday at this point) was super stressful. I know I promised a blog and video log a day and I did do my video log yesterday, but i was having internet issues and couldn't get it to upload to save my life. Not to mention that:
1. Ninny woke up yesterday at like 6 am. 6 in the freaking morning and would not go back to sleep to save my life or workout.
2. Ninny refused to take a nap... ALL DAY.
3. I had a midterm due last night by midnight, that I ended up having to get an extension on because my internet froze up while trying to log into it.
4. I had a 4 page specific paper due in my Criminal Law class that I couldn't get to upload because it kept timing out. Add to this the fact that Qwest doesn't have an afterhours troubleshooting, "I have a GD problem with my internet and you jerks need to fix it" number and I was ready to pull out my hair last night.
I didn't get my workout in until LATE last night and as a result I felt down all day yesterday and really had to force myself to get that workout in and now it's time for today's workout because Saints be praised the child is still asleep. I'm going to go close her door and kick it into high gear here!
And last nights video log that wouldn't upload last night!
1. Ninny woke up yesterday at like 6 am. 6 in the freaking morning and would not go back to sleep to save my life or workout.
2. Ninny refused to take a nap... ALL DAY.
3. I had a midterm due last night by midnight, that I ended up having to get an extension on because my internet froze up while trying to log into it.
4. I had a 4 page specific paper due in my Criminal Law class that I couldn't get to upload because it kept timing out. Add to this the fact that Qwest doesn't have an afterhours troubleshooting, "I have a GD problem with my internet and you jerks need to fix it" number and I was ready to pull out my hair last night.
I didn't get my workout in until LATE last night and as a result I felt down all day yesterday and really had to force myself to get that workout in and now it's time for today's workout because Saints be praised the child is still asleep. I'm going to go close her door and kick it into high gear here!
And last nights video log that wouldn't upload last night!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
DAY 8 - A HAPPY NAKED DAY!
Today was a damn good day! I worked out, I had a decent breakfast and a super cool salad for lunch. Let me tell you about the salad, cuz it was cool!
I mixed romaine lettuce with a few grape tomatoes, some sliced green bell peppers, sliced red peppers, sliced carrots and (here's where it gets fun) sliced strawberries and a sliced apple as well. Then I George Foreman'd a chicken breast and shredded it over the salad, then I sprinkled I tablespoon of grated parmesan and tossed a few (about a tablespoon) of fat free croutons... then I drizzled balsamic over the whole mass and chomped it down. It was Good! I wasn't sure about the strawberries and apples with the balsamic but it was amazingly good!!! All of the flavors mixed together made for a delicious and very filling salad! In fact, I wasn't really even hungry for supper, which is amazing in and of itself. Anyway, Ninny and I played half the day away and it felt good. I spent some time reading and studying and I even finally watched the episode of Fringe I had been trying to watch for two days. Leah is STILL being super supportive and amazing, which blows me away a little but I am also getting support from some friends and family members as well. I am amazed and feeling fully grateful and blessed by all the support I've been getting from so many people, friends, family and even strangers. I thank all of you and I assure you that this journey will not be possible without that support. I also would like to say that if and when any of you decide to make a life change, I will fully be here for you as well. In fact, if anybody else wants to come along with me now, I would totally welcome you with open arms!
Here's a crazy photo just for fun on this happy naked day:
And here's the video log for today! Have a great night and we'll see you tomorrow!!
I mixed romaine lettuce with a few grape tomatoes, some sliced green bell peppers, sliced red peppers, sliced carrots and (here's where it gets fun) sliced strawberries and a sliced apple as well. Then I George Foreman'd a chicken breast and shredded it over the salad, then I sprinkled I tablespoon of grated parmesan and tossed a few (about a tablespoon) of fat free croutons... then I drizzled balsamic over the whole mass and chomped it down. It was Good! I wasn't sure about the strawberries and apples with the balsamic but it was amazingly good!!! All of the flavors mixed together made for a delicious and very filling salad! In fact, I wasn't really even hungry for supper, which is amazing in and of itself. Anyway, Ninny and I played half the day away and it felt good. I spent some time reading and studying and I even finally watched the episode of Fringe I had been trying to watch for two days. Leah is STILL being super supportive and amazing, which blows me away a little but I am also getting support from some friends and family members as well. I am amazed and feeling fully grateful and blessed by all the support I've been getting from so many people, friends, family and even strangers. I thank all of you and I assure you that this journey will not be possible without that support. I also would like to say that if and when any of you decide to make a life change, I will fully be here for you as well. In fact, if anybody else wants to come along with me now, I would totally welcome you with open arms!
Here's a crazy photo just for fun on this happy naked day:
Have a great and Happy Naked Day!
And here's the video log for today! Have a great night and we'll see you tomorrow!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
DAY 7 - DISCOURAGED AND UNMOTIVATED
So today was the day I was dreading. Not today specifically, but today's mindset. I just was NOT feeling it today. I was not feeling working out, I was not feeling eating healthy, I was not feeling motivated. I forgot to turn the alarm back on again, so I woke up late again and just did not want to do my workout. Also I really wanted cereal. I almost hyperventilated when I had to go WIC grocery shopping. The thing is, the food is for Ninny, so I HAVE to buy 36 ounces of cereal and 2 gallons of whole milk and a half gallon of juice. There is no flexibility there and those bastards keep track, so if you don't buy something, when you go back in, they want to know why you didn't buy it and how you are nutritionally supplementing your child's diet alternatively and it makes the whole process take four times as long. Generally, I've been drinking Ninny's juice, because her doctor says that juice isn't good for her anyway and she eats a LOT of fruit besides... However, I can't do that anymore because the juices are so high in carbs that I just can't incorporate it into my diet anymore. Anyway, the point is that in the last 30 hours, I've had to grow some freaking willpower out of nowhere and it's really difficult. Anyway, I made it through today, I did my workout and I'm good to go... to sleep, anyway. Let's hope the insomnia of the last two days doesn't plague me again tonight. I promised some photos, so I will throw them on here:
This is Ninny's strawberry cream cheese omelette and toast with strawberry slices on it. She had milk with her breakfast.
This is my strawberry cream cheese omelette with 10 grapes and 1 slice of toast. I had Celestial Seasonings Morning Thunder Tea and a big glass of water with mine.
This is my turkey sandwich with a slice of provolone and a salad. With this meal I had Celestial Seasonings Red Zinger Tea and another big glass of water.
Now see? This is what I'm talking about. Which glass of water looks more appealing to you?
The v log and just before midnight! Yay me!
The v log and just before midnight! Yay me!
Monday, September 27, 2010
DAY 6 - WORKING OFF THE DAMN CEREAL
So I did my workout today and then I walked around the block and went up and down the stairs several times in order to work off the damn cereal I ate yesterday. Did a bunch of reading for my human sexuality class and played princess dress up with Ninny. Shut up. We had fun. I also washed my super cool little cuisinart that Chelsea gave me last night because she's the super de duper coolest sister ever. Not just because of that, she's pretty super duper anyway, but the cuisinart made for the extra little de in the super DE duper.
In other news, my right shoulder is starting to hurt. Stupid fracking injury. Don't worry, I'm not stopping even for a minute because of it. Once again, Leah took a moment out of her super busy day to throw a little encouragement my way. I wonder if she has any idea the kind of impact she's having just with that... it helps so much.
Some of my friends and family are rallying their support as well. My cousin Susan reads this blog and watches my video logs every day and has been super encouraging as well. Apparently, so does my sister, lol. My mom sent me workout clothes and some of my friends have taken it upon themselves to text me in the morning to make sure I'm awake. I've gotten numerous tips from everyone, some of which I will use and all of which I appreciate.
I took some photos of Ninny's and my breakfast this morning, it was awesome and it even looked good.
I'm super tired though and a spider just crawled under my desk quicker than I could kill him and now I can't think about anything but the spider under my desk crawling on me, so I will add them to this blog tomorrow.
Have a good night!
In other news, my right shoulder is starting to hurt. Stupid fracking injury. Don't worry, I'm not stopping even for a minute because of it. Once again, Leah took a moment out of her super busy day to throw a little encouragement my way. I wonder if she has any idea the kind of impact she's having just with that... it helps so much.
Some of my friends and family are rallying their support as well. My cousin Susan reads this blog and watches my video logs every day and has been super encouraging as well. Apparently, so does my sister, lol. My mom sent me workout clothes and some of my friends have taken it upon themselves to text me in the morning to make sure I'm awake. I've gotten numerous tips from everyone, some of which I will use and all of which I appreciate.
I took some photos of Ninny's and my breakfast this morning, it was awesome and it even looked good.
I'm super tired though and a spider just crawled under my desk quicker than I could kill him and now I can't think about anything but the spider under my desk crawling on me, so I will add them to this blog tomorrow.
Have a good night!
Sunday, September 26, 2010
DAY 5 - REST AND RECUPERATION... SORT OF
Okay, so I decided to take today off to do homework and be slovenly but the thing is, I keep thinking about working out. I'm kind of feeling like I shouldn't be taking a day off for the first month, so I think I'm going to do my workout while Ninny's taking her nap this afternoon. I remember reading somewhere in my youth that it takes 30 days to make something a habit or something like that, so I think I want to push it hard the first month, kind of like in AA when they do a meeting every day for the first 30 days. It just feels like if I stop my momentum now I won't be able to get back into it tomorrow and that's not acceptable.
Alright, couple of things. I did not take today off from my workout. I worked out while Ninny was napping. On the other hand, I also had a relapse today. My neighbor (whom gave all my bad instant foods to) gave me a great big box of Corn Flakes today. I have discovered that my biggest weakness is cereal. When it comes to cold cereal, I'm like an alcoholic. It's not so much that I can't stop eating it all at once, it's that when I have cold cereal, nothing else sounds nearly as good, so I eat it three meals a day until it's gone. Seriously, I had to avoid the cereal aisle altogether when we went shopping yesterday. It's the one thing that I can't just let Ninny have herself, because I can't have it in the house. I also had to avoid it entirely when I was pregnant with her because of the gestational diabetes. I have no "OFF" button when it comes to cereal. This is very embarrassing for me to admit, but the more honest I am with myself and all of you, the higher chance I have of succeeding in this challenge. I did manage to only have one bowl of cereal, which is a miracle in and of itself and I am going to ask Chelsea (my sister) to take it away with her this evening when she comes by to help me finish up with the removal of the unhealthy foods and to visit as well.
Chelsea came over after work and we had chicken stir fry with the spritzer I talked about in yesterday's bonus video log, it was really tasty. I've got homework, so that's the end of today's blog. Have a great night and we'll talk to you tomorrow!
So here's my video log for today, Cheers!
Oh and in case you're wondering... Leah was even supportive of me having to take a break... that I didn't end up taking, lol.
Ya gotta love that woman, she is sooo supportive.
Alright, couple of things. I did not take today off from my workout. I worked out while Ninny was napping. On the other hand, I also had a relapse today. My neighbor (whom gave all my bad instant foods to) gave me a great big box of Corn Flakes today. I have discovered that my biggest weakness is cereal. When it comes to cold cereal, I'm like an alcoholic. It's not so much that I can't stop eating it all at once, it's that when I have cold cereal, nothing else sounds nearly as good, so I eat it three meals a day until it's gone. Seriously, I had to avoid the cereal aisle altogether when we went shopping yesterday. It's the one thing that I can't just let Ninny have herself, because I can't have it in the house. I also had to avoid it entirely when I was pregnant with her because of the gestational diabetes. I have no "OFF" button when it comes to cereal. This is very embarrassing for me to admit, but the more honest I am with myself and all of you, the higher chance I have of succeeding in this challenge. I did manage to only have one bowl of cereal, which is a miracle in and of itself and I am going to ask Chelsea (my sister) to take it away with her this evening when she comes by to help me finish up with the removal of the unhealthy foods and to visit as well.
Chelsea came over after work and we had chicken stir fry with the spritzer I talked about in yesterday's bonus video log, it was really tasty. I've got homework, so that's the end of today's blog. Have a great night and we'll talk to you tomorrow!
So here's my video log for today, Cheers!
Oh and in case you're wondering... Leah was even supportive of me having to take a break... that I didn't end up taking, lol.
Ya gotta love that woman, she is sooo supportive.
DAY 4 - ADVENTURES IN GROCERYLAND
Okay, so it's the end of the day and we are still on schedule! I remembered to set the alarm, I did my Firm workout first thing and I was good all day! We went shopping today and I spent roughly $80 in groceries, none of which was unhealthy. Yay me! Good news, I actually did my workout today before Leah did hers! Oh and she read this blog today and even commented about it on Twitter. Seriously, how cool is she?
Okay, as far as the other things I discovered today, I will leave you with my TWO video blogs that I made today. The first, a normal one from this morning after I worked out and showered:
The second after I realized we had nothing to eat in the house, went grocery shopping and recharged the battery for this camera!
Sorry, fell asleep at the keyboard. Here it is!
The second after I realized we had nothing to eat in the house, went grocery shopping and recharged the battery for this camera!
Sorry, fell asleep at the keyboard. Here it is!
Friday, September 24, 2010
DAY THREE... REMEMBER TO SET THE ALARM.
Well, this is the end of day three. It was a busy day, full of visitors and laundry and a workout that only had to be paused once for catching up purposes. That, in and of itself, is amazing because when I forgot to set the alarm, I woke up the way I have been waking up for the nearly two years. I awoke to the sounds of Ephiny hollering for me to let her out of her crib. Yes, although she's almost two, she still resides in a crib, at least until my sister gets up the gumption to bring the twin bed over from her boyfriend's music room. She's had it there since Paul gave me his old Queen bed and I no longer needed it for myself. Thing is, once she has a big girl bed, she's going to be able to get up and out of bed on her own and I'm really going to have to be on my toes and be up before she is. Anyway, I digress.
I had basically the same thing for breakfast today that I had yesterday, however I am going to have to figure something else out for tomorrow because that egg/spinach/onion combo gave me about the worst "peel the paint off the walls" gas of my life. Worse, I think (maybe) than when I kept eating those giant roasted elephant garlic bulbs and that gas almost made me cry, let alone what it did to Lisa and Ally. Sorry guys.
Anyhow, for lunch I had a turkey sandwich on multigrain bread and for dinner I George Foreman'd a burger with 5 steak fries and half a cup of corn. We did eat kind of late (8:30pm) but I have to remember that this is a work in progress and I can't expect to change everything overnight.
One thing I did do today that I'm proud of is that I got rid of all of my pastaroni side dishes when I read their ingredients and found that a key ingredient in all of them was SODIUM. I drank a boatload of water today but still haven't made it out for my walk. I need to get out and walk again.
I'm beginning to worry that I'm becoming a shut in. I need to force myself to get out of the house every day in order to combat this tendency. Anybody want to volunteer to walk with me?
Anyway, third day in a row and Leah is still being supportive. I'm beginning to wonder how long she'll be there to help push me forward.
I know she's a busy person, especially with her new show coming up next month (The Talk on CBS starting October 18th around 1 or 2 pm) and I have the utmost respect for her. I am grateful for her support for as long as I have it. Not that you'll ever read this, but thanks Leah.
Now then, as promised... My V log for today:
Take care, sleep well and we'll see you tomorrow!
I had basically the same thing for breakfast today that I had yesterday, however I am going to have to figure something else out for tomorrow because that egg/spinach/onion combo gave me about the worst "peel the paint off the walls" gas of my life. Worse, I think (maybe) than when I kept eating those giant roasted elephant garlic bulbs and that gas almost made me cry, let alone what it did to Lisa and Ally. Sorry guys.
Anyhow, for lunch I had a turkey sandwich on multigrain bread and for dinner I George Foreman'd a burger with 5 steak fries and half a cup of corn. We did eat kind of late (8:30pm) but I have to remember that this is a work in progress and I can't expect to change everything overnight.
One thing I did do today that I'm proud of is that I got rid of all of my pastaroni side dishes when I read their ingredients and found that a key ingredient in all of them was SODIUM. I drank a boatload of water today but still haven't made it out for my walk. I need to get out and walk again.
I'm beginning to worry that I'm becoming a shut in. I need to force myself to get out of the house every day in order to combat this tendency. Anybody want to volunteer to walk with me?
Anyway, third day in a row and Leah is still being supportive. I'm beginning to wonder how long she'll be there to help push me forward.
I know she's a busy person, especially with her new show coming up next month (The Talk on CBS starting October 18th around 1 or 2 pm) and I have the utmost respect for her. I am grateful for her support for as long as I have it. Not that you'll ever read this, but thanks Leah.
Now then, as promised... My V log for today:
Take care, sleep well and we'll see you tomorrow!
Thursday, September 23, 2010
DAY TWO... 7AM? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
So, day two. It's the end of the day and I'm pretty well pooped out. I'm going to make today's blog short and sweet and attach the video log and that's about it. I started a workout called The Firm today. Why The Firm? Because I got it from the bargain bin at King Sooper's (Kroger/City Market) for like 50 cents. Seriously. 50 cents and it came with the bungee cord thing, which is pretty awesome. Also, it's a 30 minute workout and I can pant and wheeze my way through that... apparently.
Here's what we ate today:
Breakfast:
2 Brown eggs, 1 cup spinach, 1 cup onions, 1/4 cup (little less) shredded cheese blend, 1/4 cup milk
I threw all of that in a blender and then made kind of a scramble, which turned green because of the spinach. After I scrambled it, I threw 2 tablespoons of White corn and Black bean salsa on top. I thought it was delicious... ish. Ninny looked at the green eggs and we had a Dr. Seuss moment. I caved and made her some hot cereal instead.
Anyway, I also had a slice of multigrain toast with 1/2 tsp of blue bonnet and 1 tsp of Smuckers reduced sugar strawberry jam. I also drank 1 1/2 cups of milk with it and a large glass of water.
All told, I had 2 servings of carbs. Had protein, fruits and veggies, grains and dairy.
Lunch:
For lunch we had Tuna fish sandwiches with provolone cheese.
Tuna Salad: 1 can albacore, 1 tablespoon reduced fat mayo, 1 teaspoon mustard and 5 pickle slices (diced).
I personally like to put just a smidgen of celery salt and a touch of both garlic and onion powder.
*You may want to think twice about that last part if you're feeding a child still in diapers. When it came time to change that diaper a couple of hours ago, I almost threw up it was so gnarly and I have a pretty iron clad stomach. It was a nightmare. Seriously. Wow.
Anyway, 2 servings of carbs for lunch.
Supper:
For supper I cheated a bit... sort of. I had an Amy's Organics Tamale Verde. It was 3 freaking carb servings all at once and like 400 calories and 16g of fat but damn it's GOOOOOOD. So 3 servings plus of carbs for supper. Ninny had macaroni and cheese... and my beans and rice that came with my tamale verde because I don't like them and she does.
Once again, Leah Remini is being ultra supportive, which amazes me because even my friend/neighbor doesn't think I can do it and flat out told me last night that he didn't think I should even try. I felt like shit after that, so seeing Leah be so supportive of me this morning was a little burst of sunshine that I really needed and it was just enough boost to get me going and keep me on track. I really am going to owe her a debt of gratitude.
Who knew what an amazing friend she could be? I don't expect it to last but damnit I'm grateful for the support while I have it.
and now for my video blog for the day... it was done this morning right after I worked out, so I'm a little sweaty and gross but I wanted to talk while I was, well... I guess ripe would be a more appropriate term than fresh at that point, lol.
Take care folks!
Here's what we ate today:
Breakfast:
2 Brown eggs, 1 cup spinach, 1 cup onions, 1/4 cup (little less) shredded cheese blend, 1/4 cup milk
I threw all of that in a blender and then made kind of a scramble, which turned green because of the spinach. After I scrambled it, I threw 2 tablespoons of White corn and Black bean salsa on top. I thought it was delicious... ish. Ninny looked at the green eggs and we had a Dr. Seuss moment. I caved and made her some hot cereal instead.
Anyway, I also had a slice of multigrain toast with 1/2 tsp of blue bonnet and 1 tsp of Smuckers reduced sugar strawberry jam. I also drank 1 1/2 cups of milk with it and a large glass of water.
All told, I had 2 servings of carbs. Had protein, fruits and veggies, grains and dairy.
Lunch:
For lunch we had Tuna fish sandwiches with provolone cheese.
Tuna Salad: 1 can albacore, 1 tablespoon reduced fat mayo, 1 teaspoon mustard and 5 pickle slices (diced).
I personally like to put just a smidgen of celery salt and a touch of both garlic and onion powder.
*You may want to think twice about that last part if you're feeding a child still in diapers. When it came time to change that diaper a couple of hours ago, I almost threw up it was so gnarly and I have a pretty iron clad stomach. It was a nightmare. Seriously. Wow.
Anyway, 2 servings of carbs for lunch.
Supper:
For supper I cheated a bit... sort of. I had an Amy's Organics Tamale Verde. It was 3 freaking carb servings all at once and like 400 calories and 16g of fat but damn it's GOOOOOOD. So 3 servings plus of carbs for supper. Ninny had macaroni and cheese... and my beans and rice that came with my tamale verde because I don't like them and she does.
Once again, Leah Remini is being ultra supportive, which amazes me because even my friend/neighbor doesn't think I can do it and flat out told me last night that he didn't think I should even try. I felt like shit after that, so seeing Leah be so supportive of me this morning was a little burst of sunshine that I really needed and it was just enough boost to get me going and keep me on track. I really am going to owe her a debt of gratitude.
Who knew what an amazing friend she could be? I don't expect it to last but damnit I'm grateful for the support while I have it.
Take care folks!
BRAND NEW DAY!
IT'S A BRAND NEW DAY AND I'M MOTIVATED!
Thanks to Leah Remini, I have been forced to pull my head out of my ass and take a serious look at my physical condition and how it affects my everyday life. What's Leah got to do, got to do with it? I have a secret obsession with Twitter. I'm not proud of this but well, there it is. I personally think that Twitter is the greatest thing ever invented for celebrities. It's a way for them to safely interact with their fans on a case by case basis. Anyway, I digress...
The point of that was that I have been tweeting Leah Remini since she joined Twitter a week or two ago. Nothing major, I'm not her new BFF or anything. I welcomed her to Twitter and she, being the properly raised, down to earth person that she is, thanked me very politely. I've made a few other comments to her, some of which she has replied to. The day before yesterday, I asked her if I could make a suggestion for a topic for her new show. She said yes and to bring it, so I did.
What I told her (and I'm paraphrasing here, you are welcome to check out the actual verbiage on my twitter if you like) was that one of the biggest resentments moms have toward celebrities is their personal trainers. I can't even tell you how many times I've heard the following, "Well of course she looks fabulous, she can afford a personal trainer and fancy gyms and equipment. If I made that kind o money, I'd look fabulous too!"
So Leah replied, saying it was a great topic and asking if I thought it was really a monetary issue or was it more an issue of motivation? To which I replied that the majority of us believe that if we had the money to afford a personal trainer, they would take care of the motivation factor for us. She pretty much felt that was BS and that the thinking behind that was simply me, stopping me, that my state of mind was more to blame than my pocketbook and furthermore, Sonya... walking is free.
*Sidenote: My mother says that and she has dropped a lot of weight over the years, simply by walking.
This made me stop in my tracks. Gods love her and her "New Yorker tell it like it is" way of being, Leah is right. There is absolutely no excuse for me to be in the condition I'm in and the only person who is going to change that is me. I don't think I ever wanted it badly enough before, but I'm taking this as a challenge and I will be popping in a video log, if not a blog, every day. Leah is being very supportive, Gods love her:
I suppose when this works I will owe her a debt of gratitude... perhaps I'll have to be a lifelong fan or something.
Vigilant reader, please, if you see a day go by without a vlog or a blog posted, email me at sylvarwolf@hotmail.com, find me on facebook under Sonya Wolf or on Twitter under SonyaSylvarWolf and give a shout, because this is too important not to take seriously.
Oh and Leah, if you read this,
How about a phone call on my birthday, May 20th, 2011 to congratulate me if I manage to bring my weight down to a healthy 125 or less?
Anyway, here's my first video log. Be kind, I don't know what the hell I'm doing and I'm sure it shows.
Anyway, here's my first video log. Be kind, I don't know what the hell I'm doing and I'm sure it shows.
Food for thought.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Patriotism
On this, the weekend of Memorial Day, I'm noticing a lot of people getting all up in arms over patriotism and what it means... so being an egghead, I looked it the hell up.
pa*tri*ot*ism n. Love of and devotion to one's country.
Hmmmmm...
I thought for sure, the way people act that the words blind obeisance to one's government would be included in there somewhere. Guess not. Love of and devotion to one's country. Okay, that seems pretty simple and straightforward. I have love for and devotion to my mother. I have love for and devotion to my daughter. I would not blindly follow either one. My mother is a Jehovah's Witness (I'm not getting into that, it's a whole series of blogs in it's own right) and my daughter is 17 months old tomorrow. blindly following either one of them could lead me into some serious problems. Because you have to know what you're following and why. The same holds true for government. I hope nobody blindly follows our government. The last time we had blind obeisance, hundreds of thousands of Jews were slaughtered to make way for a new world. Now I don't know about you, but I think that's a travesty. Besides, Jewish women are hot.
Anyway, the point... and I assure you I do have one... is that nobody, let me repeat that with emphasis, NOBODY should ever follow anyone or anything blindly. Ever. I will never just follow anybody for any reason. It will not happen. I demand to know why my country is doing something and who I can hold accountable specifically if it goes wrong. I will not just accept policies and decisions because my government tells me to. NO! I will not bow down. I will not follow like a sheeple. not government and not organized religion. Absolute power corrupts absolutely.
I'm just saying... nobody has the right to tell anybody else how to be an American. Nor does anybody have the right to tell anybody else to get out because they disagree with you and what you think is patriotic.
the point is this:
Dear America,
why must you be so damn stubborn in the way you look at patriotism? Do you not realize that without our diversity and the freedom to be diverse we are no more than a communist country... maybe socialist. You get the point. We all have the god given right to our freedom, it's guaranteed in our constitution. Which means that when you get right down to it, you have the right, even to disagree with the constitution. Probably not going to do you any good, but well, there ya go. Learn to cherish diversity. It's what makes America the land of the free and the home of the brave.
Even if you choose to remain the ignorant bastiges that you have been lately, I refer you to my favorite impromptu quote: "I may not agree with what you say but I will fight to the death to defend your right to say it."
That's all for me today. Take care and have a great Saturday night.
pa*tri*ot*ism n. Love of and devotion to one's country.
Hmmmmm...
I thought for sure, the way people act that the words blind obeisance to one's government would be included in there somewhere. Guess not. Love of and devotion to one's country. Okay, that seems pretty simple and straightforward. I have love for and devotion to my mother. I have love for and devotion to my daughter. I would not blindly follow either one. My mother is a Jehovah's Witness (I'm not getting into that, it's a whole series of blogs in it's own right) and my daughter is 17 months old tomorrow. blindly following either one of them could lead me into some serious problems. Because you have to know what you're following and why. The same holds true for government. I hope nobody blindly follows our government. The last time we had blind obeisance, hundreds of thousands of Jews were slaughtered to make way for a new world. Now I don't know about you, but I think that's a travesty. Besides, Jewish women are hot.
Anyway, the point... and I assure you I do have one... is that nobody, let me repeat that with emphasis, NOBODY should ever follow anyone or anything blindly. Ever. I will never just follow anybody for any reason. It will not happen. I demand to know why my country is doing something and who I can hold accountable specifically if it goes wrong. I will not just accept policies and decisions because my government tells me to. NO! I will not bow down. I will not follow like a sheeple. not government and not organized religion. Absolute power corrupts absolutely.
I'm just saying... nobody has the right to tell anybody else how to be an American. Nor does anybody have the right to tell anybody else to get out because they disagree with you and what you think is patriotic.
the point is this:
Dear America,
why must you be so damn stubborn in the way you look at patriotism? Do you not realize that without our diversity and the freedom to be diverse we are no more than a communist country... maybe socialist. You get the point. We all have the god given right to our freedom, it's guaranteed in our constitution. Which means that when you get right down to it, you have the right, even to disagree with the constitution. Probably not going to do you any good, but well, there ya go. Learn to cherish diversity. It's what makes America the land of the free and the home of the brave.
Even if you choose to remain the ignorant bastiges that you have been lately, I refer you to my favorite impromptu quote: "I may not agree with what you say but I will fight to the death to defend your right to say it."
That's all for me today. Take care and have a great Saturday night.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Moments
If I could impart one piece of knowledge to my daughter, it would be that life is all about moments. Not just the big, grandstanding moments, but every little tiny moment and when you miss too many of those, life starts to lose it's meaning. We have so many things in our lives that take away from those moments, television, the internet, work, school and our busy busy lives. Sometimes I think it's a good idea to slow down a bit and savor those moments like a fine wine. So start savoring! Today's blog is a short one because I am about to go out and savor some moments with my baby girl.
My point being:
Dear America,
Sometime in your overcaffeinated, supercharged, speeding, charging, hard working, blur of a life, please take a moment to stop and assess why it is that you work so hard and run so fast and drink so damn many caramochalatte splits or whatever they're called. I doubt it's just for the sake of doing it.
Take care and enjoy your Friday!
My point being:
Dear America,
Sometime in your overcaffeinated, supercharged, speeding, charging, hard working, blur of a life, please take a moment to stop and assess why it is that you work so hard and run so fast and drink so damn many caramochalatte splits or whatever they're called. I doubt it's just for the sake of doing it.
Take care and enjoy your Friday!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
It's the simple things in life
So last night Ninny and I watched American Idol and she correctly predicted the winner for the second year in a row. Much the same as last year, I was flabbergasted and confused as to how she or anybody could choose what's his name over Adam Lambert OR how any person in their right mind could choose Lee DeWyze over Crystal Bowersox. Ninny did. Both years. That got me thinking.
Ephiny, by all reasoning that I can figure thus far, is a heterosexual. You may think you can't tell that sort of thing in an 17 month old baby and you may be right, but she is very male oriented and loves men entirely more than women, which I find odd for a baby. I always thought that babies would be more female or "mommy" centered. Either I'm wrong or my child is a raging heterosexual... maybe both. Whatever makes her happy, right? Anyway, I digress.
I start to think. American Idol is pretty popular across the board but it's especially popular with the teeny bopper and housewife crowd. Sadly, the teeny bopper and housewife crowd tend to root for the underdog and almost always vote for the boy if given a choice.
Personally, I think it's to overcompensate for their latent homosexual fantasies regarding the effervescent Crystal Bowersox. I know I had them (not so latently) and if you watched Ellen closely this season, I think she did too... just sayin'.
My point being:
Dear American Idol Viewing Public,
When will you learn to have good taste? Why would the recording studios leave such important decisions up to an obviously underqualified viewing public? When will you figure out how to judge the "IT" factor in a musician? Don't get me wrong, Lee is a great kid, a good singer and very humble but damnit, Crystal has "Rock Star Quality" and you just can't buy that, you can't teach it and you sure as hell can't force it. Sorry to say it but Lee is bound to be another David what's his name (not Archuletta, the other one), forgotten two years down the road. Watch Crystal... that girl is going to blossom with or without the victory. Much likeAdam Lambert , she won't need it to flourish if she takes the right steps and makes the right moves. She never compromised herself, her vision, or her music and that is worth it's weight in solid 24k gold.
Keep the faith Crystal, sign with a good label, make an album and I'll be among the first in line to buy it. I won't even pirate it off of the internet, I'll let it be among the 6 Cds that I own. I believe and you should too.
Also of note, Ninnythe rock star baby, somehow conned me into buying her a singing, light flashing, microphone at Wal-Mart today. Possibly because she picked it up while we were looking at bike tire tubes and started singing into it immediately and didn't want to let it go even long enough for it to be scanned. Luckily for her (and quite possibly me) it was less than $5.
Take care and I hope everyone is enjoying their summer so far!
Ephiny, by all reasoning that I can figure thus far, is a heterosexual. You may think you can't tell that sort of thing in an 17 month old baby and you may be right, but she is very male oriented and loves men entirely more than women, which I find odd for a baby. I always thought that babies would be more female or "mommy" centered. Either I'm wrong or my child is a raging heterosexual... maybe both. Whatever makes her happy, right? Anyway, I digress.
I start to think. American Idol is pretty popular across the board but it's especially popular with the teeny bopper and housewife crowd. Sadly, the teeny bopper and housewife crowd tend to root for the underdog and almost always vote for the boy if given a choice.
Personally, I think it's to overcompensate for their latent homosexual fantasies regarding the effervescent Crystal Bowersox. I know I had them (not so latently) and if you watched Ellen closely this season, I think she did too... just sayin'.
My point being:
Dear American Idol Viewing Public,
When will you learn to have good taste? Why would the recording studios leave such important decisions up to an obviously underqualified viewing public? When will you figure out how to judge the "IT" factor in a musician? Don't get me wrong, Lee is a great kid, a good singer and very humble but damnit, Crystal has "Rock Star Quality" and you just can't buy that, you can't teach it and you sure as hell can't force it. Sorry to say it but Lee is bound to be another David what's his name (not Archuletta, the other one), forgotten two years down the road. Watch Crystal... that girl is going to blossom with or without the victory. Much like
Keep the faith Crystal, sign with a good label, make an album and I'll be among the first in line to buy it. I won't even pirate it off of the internet, I'll let it be among the 6 Cds that I own. I believe and you should too.
Also of note, Ninny
Take care and I hope everyone is enjoying their summer so far!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)