DAY 9 - A SUPER STRESSFUL DAY!

Okay folks, so today (which is actually yesterday at this point) was super stressful.  I know I promised a blog and video log a day and I did do my video log yesterday, but i was having internet issues and couldn't get it to upload to save my life.  Not to mention that:
1. Ninny woke up yesterday at like 6 am. 6 in the freaking morning and would not go back to sleep to save my life or workout.
2. Ninny refused to take a nap... ALL DAY.
3. I had a midterm due last night by midnight, that I ended up having to get an extension on because my internet froze up while trying to log into it.
4. I had a 4 page specific paper due in my Criminal Law class that I couldn't get to upload because it kept timing out.  Add to this the fact that Qwest doesn't have an afterhours troubleshooting, "I have a GD problem with my internet and you jerks need to fix it" number and I was ready to pull out my hair last night.
I didn't get my workout in until LATE last night and as a result I felt down all day yesterday and really had to force myself to get that workout in and now it's time for today's workout because Saints be praised the child is still asleep.  I'm going to go close her door and kick it into high gear here!

And last nights video log that wouldn't upload last night!

DAY 8 - A HAPPY NAKED DAY!

     Today was a damn good day!  I worked out, I had a decent breakfast and a super cool salad for lunch.  Let me tell you about the salad, cuz it was cool!
I mixed romaine lettuce with a few grape tomatoes, some sliced green bell peppers, sliced red peppers, sliced carrots and (here's where it gets fun) sliced strawberries and a sliced apple as well.  Then I George Foreman'd a chicken breast and shredded it over the salad, then I sprinkled I tablespoon of grated parmesan and tossed a few (about a tablespoon) of fat free croutons... then I drizzled balsamic over the whole mass and chomped it down.  It was Good!  I wasn't sure about the strawberries and apples with the balsamic but it was amazingly good!!!  All of the flavors mixed together made for a delicious and very filling salad!  In fact, I wasn't really even hungry for supper, which is amazing in and of itself.  Anyway, Ninny and I played half the day away and it felt good.  I spent some time reading and studying and I even finally watched the episode of Fringe I had been trying to watch for two days.  Leah is STILL being super supportive and amazing, which blows me away a little but I am also getting support from some friends and family members as well.  I am amazed and feeling fully grateful and blessed by all the support I've been getting from so many people, friends, family and even strangers.  I thank all of you and I assure you that this journey will not be possible without that support.  I also would like to say that if and when any of you decide to make a life change, I will fully be here for you as well.  In fact, if anybody else wants to come along with me now, I would totally welcome you with open arms!
Here's a crazy photo just for fun on this happy naked day:

Have a great and Happy Naked Day!

And here's the video log for today!  Have a great night and we'll see you tomorrow!!

DAY 7 - DISCOURAGED AND UNMOTIVATED

     So today was the day I was dreading.  Not today specifically, but today's mindset.  I just was NOT feeling it today.  I was not feeling working out, I was not feeling eating healthy, I was not feeling motivated.  I forgot to turn the alarm back on again, so I woke up late again and just did not want to do my workout.  Also I really wanted cereal.  I almost hyperventilated when I had to go WIC grocery shopping.  The thing is, the food is for Ninny, so I HAVE  to buy 36 ounces of cereal and 2 gallons of whole milk and a half gallon of juice.  There is no flexibility there and those bastards keep track, so if you don't buy something, when you go back in, they want to know why you didn't buy it and how you are nutritionally supplementing your child's diet alternatively and it makes the whole process take four times as long.  Generally, I've been drinking Ninny's juice, because her doctor says that juice isn't good for her anyway and she eats a LOT of fruit besides... However, I can't do that anymore because the juices are so high in carbs that I just can't incorporate it into my diet anymore.  Anyway, the point is that in the last 30 hours, I've had to grow some freaking willpower out of nowhere and it's really difficult.  Anyway, I made it through today, I did my workout and I'm good to go... to sleep, anyway.  Let's hope the insomnia of the last two days doesn't plague me again tonight.  I promised some photos, so I will throw them on here:

 This is Ninny's strawberry cream cheese omelette and toast with strawberry slices on it.  She had milk with her breakfast.

 This is my strawberry cream cheese omelette with 10 grapes and 1 slice of toast.  I had Celestial Seasonings Morning Thunder Tea and a big glass of water with mine.

 This is my turkey sandwich with a slice of provolone and a salad.  With this meal I had Celestial Seasonings Red Zinger Tea and another big glass of water.

 

Now see?  This is what I'm talking about. Which glass of water looks more appealing to you?

The v log and just before midnight!  Yay me!

DAY 6 - WORKING OFF THE DAMN CEREAL

     So I did my workout today and then I walked around the block and went up and down the stairs several times in order to work off the damn cereal I ate yesterday.  Did a bunch of reading for my human sexuality class and played princess dress up with Ninny.  Shut up.  We had fun. I also washed my super cool little cuisinart that Chelsea gave me last night because she's the super de duper coolest sister ever.  Not just because of that, she's pretty super duper anyway, but the cuisinart made for the extra little de in the super DE duper.
     In other news, my right shoulder is starting to hurt.  Stupid fracking injury.  Don't worry, I'm not stopping even for a minute because of it.  Once again, Leah took a moment out of her super busy day to throw a little encouragement my way.  I wonder if she has any idea the kind of impact she's having just with that... it helps so much.
     Some of my friends and family are rallying their support as well.  My cousin Susan reads this blog and watches my video logs every day and has been super encouraging as well.  Apparently, so does my sister, lol.  My mom sent me workout clothes and some of my friends have taken it upon themselves to text me in the morning to make sure I'm awake.  I've gotten numerous tips from everyone, some of which I will use and all of which I appreciate.
     I took some photos of Ninny's and my breakfast this morning, it was awesome and it even looked good.
I'm super tired though and a spider just crawled under my desk quicker than I could kill him and now I can't think about anything but the spider under my desk crawling on me, so I will add them to this blog tomorrow.
Have a good night!

DAY 5 - REST AND RECUPERATION... SORT OF

     Okay, so I decided to take today off to do homework and be slovenly but the thing is, I keep thinking about working out.  I'm kind of feeling like I shouldn't be taking a day off for the first month, so I think I'm going to do my workout while Ninny's taking her nap this afternoon.  I remember reading somewhere in my youth that it takes 30 days to make something a habit or something like that, so I think I want to push it hard the first month, kind of like in AA when they do a meeting every day for the first 30 days.  It just feels like if I stop my momentum now I won't be able to get back into it tomorrow and that's not acceptable.
     Alright, couple of things.  I did not take today off from my workout.  I worked out while Ninny was napping.  On the other hand, I also had a relapse today.  My neighbor (whom gave all my bad instant foods to) gave me a great big box of Corn Flakes today.  I have discovered that my biggest weakness is cereal.  When it comes to cold cereal, I'm like an alcoholic.  It's not so much that I can't stop eating it all at once, it's that when I have cold cereal, nothing else sounds nearly as good, so I eat it three meals a day until it's gone.  Seriously, I had to avoid the cereal aisle altogether when we went shopping yesterday.  It's the one thing that I can't just let Ninny have herself, because I can't have it in the house.  I also had to avoid it entirely when I was pregnant with her because of the gestational diabetes.  I have no "OFF" button when it comes to cereal.  This is very embarrassing for me to admit, but the more honest I am with myself and all of you, the higher chance I have of succeeding in this challenge.  I did manage to only have one bowl of cereal, which is a miracle in and of itself and I am going to ask Chelsea (my sister) to take it away with her this evening when she comes by to help me finish up with the removal of the unhealthy foods and to visit as well.
     Chelsea came over after work and we had chicken stir fry with the spritzer I talked about in yesterday's bonus video log, it was really tasty.  I've got homework, so that's the end of today's blog.  Have a great night and we'll talk to you tomorrow!
So here's my video log for today, Cheers!

Oh and in case you're wondering... Leah was even supportive of me having to take a break... that I didn't end up taking, lol.

Ya gotta love that woman, she is sooo supportive.

DAY 4 - ADVENTURES IN GROCERYLAND

Okay, so it's the end of the day and we are still on schedule!  I remembered to set the alarm, I did my Firm workout first thing and I was good all day!  We went shopping today and I spent roughly $80 in groceries, none of which was unhealthy.  Yay me!  Good news, I actually did my workout today before Leah did hers!  Oh and she read this blog today and even commented about it on Twitter.  Seriously, how cool is she?

Okay, as far as the other things I discovered today, I will leave you with my TWO video blogs that I made today.  The first, a normal one from this morning after I worked out and showered:

The second after I realized we had nothing to eat in the house, went grocery shopping and recharged the battery for this camera!

Sorry, fell asleep at the keyboard.  Here it is!

DAY THREE... REMEMBER TO SET THE ALARM.

     Well, this is the end of day three.  It was a busy day, full of visitors and laundry and a workout that only had to be paused once for catching up purposes.  That, in and of itself, is amazing because when I forgot to set the alarm, I woke up the way I have been waking up for the nearly two years.  I awoke to the sounds of Ephiny hollering for me to let her out of her crib.  Yes, although she's almost two, she still resides in a crib, at least until my sister gets up the gumption to bring the twin bed over from her boyfriend's music room.  She's had it there since Paul gave me his old Queen bed and I no longer needed it for myself.  Thing is, once she has a big girl bed, she's going to be able to get up and out of bed on her own and I'm really going to have to be on my toes and be up before she is.  Anyway, I digress.
     I had basically the same thing for breakfast today that I had yesterday, however I am going to have to figure something else out for tomorrow because that egg/spinach/onion combo gave me about the worst "peel the paint off the walls" gas of my life.  Worse, I think (maybe) than when I kept eating those giant roasted elephant garlic bulbs and that gas almost made me cry, let alone what it did to Lisa and Ally.  Sorry guys.
Anyhow, for lunch I had a turkey sandwich on multigrain bread and for dinner I George Foreman'd a burger with 5 steak fries and half a cup of corn.  We did eat kind of late (8:30pm) but I have to remember that this is a work in progress and I can't expect to change everything overnight.
     One thing I did do today that I'm proud of is that I got rid of all of my pastaroni side dishes when I read their ingredients and found that a key ingredient in all of them was SODIUM.  I drank a boatload of water today but still haven't made it out for my walk.  I need to get out and walk again. 
     I'm beginning to worry that I'm becoming a shut in.  I need to force myself to get out of the house every day in order to combat this tendency.  Anybody want to volunteer to walk with me?
Anyway, third day in a row and Leah is still being supportive.  I'm beginning to wonder how long she'll be there to help push me forward. 

I know she's a busy person, especially with her new show coming up next month (The Talk on CBS starting October 18th around 1 or 2 pm) and I have the utmost respect for her.  I am grateful for her support for as long as I have it.  Not that you'll ever read this, but thanks Leah.
     Now then, as promised... My V log for today:

Take care, sleep well and we'll see you tomorrow!

DAY TWO... 7AM? WHAT WAS I THINKING?

So, day two.  It's the end of the day and I'm pretty well pooped out.  I'm going to make today's blog short and sweet and attach the video log and that's about it.  I started a workout called The Firm today.  Why The Firm?  Because I got it from the bargain bin at King Sooper's (Kroger/City Market) for like 50 cents.  Seriously.  50 cents and it came with the bungee cord thing, which is pretty awesome.  Also, it's a 30 minute workout and I can pant and wheeze my way through that... apparently. 
Here's what we ate today:
Breakfast:
2 Brown eggs, 1 cup spinach, 1 cup onions, 1/4 cup (little less) shredded cheese blend, 1/4 cup milk
I threw all of that in a blender and then made kind of a scramble, which turned green because of the spinach.  After I scrambled it, I threw 2 tablespoons of White corn and Black bean salsa on top.  I thought it was delicious... ish.  Ninny looked at the green eggs and we had a Dr. Seuss moment.  I caved and made her some hot cereal instead.
Anyway, I also had a slice of multigrain toast with 1/2 tsp of blue bonnet and 1 tsp of Smuckers reduced sugar strawberry jam.  I also drank 1 1/2 cups of milk with it and a large glass of water.
All told, I had 2 servings of carbs.  Had protein, fruits and veggies, grains and dairy. 
Lunch:
For lunch we had Tuna fish sandwiches with provolone cheese.
Tuna Salad: 1 can albacore, 1 tablespoon reduced fat mayo, 1 teaspoon mustard and 5 pickle slices (diced).
I personally like to put just a smidgen of celery salt and a touch of both garlic and onion powder. 
*You may want to think twice about that last part if you're feeding a child still in diapers.  When it came time to change that diaper a couple of hours ago, I almost threw up it was so gnarly and I have a pretty iron clad stomach.  It was a nightmare.  Seriously.  Wow.
Anyway, 2 servings of carbs for lunch.
Supper:
For supper I cheated a bit... sort of.  I had an Amy's Organics Tamale Verde.  It was 3 freaking carb servings all at once and like 400 calories and 16g of fat but damn it's GOOOOOOD.   So 3 servings plus of carbs for supper.  Ninny had macaroni and cheese... and my beans and rice that came with my tamale verde because I don't like them and she does.

Once again, Leah Remini is being ultra supportive, which amazes me because even my friend/neighbor doesn't think I can do it and flat out told me last night that he didn't think I should even try.  I felt like shit after that, so seeing Leah be so supportive of me this morning was a little burst of sunshine that I really needed and it was just enough boost to get me going and keep me on track.  I really am going to owe her a debt of gratitude.
Who knew what an amazing friend she could be?  I don't expect it to last but damnit I'm grateful for the support while I have it.

and now for my video blog for the day... it was done this morning right after I worked out, so I'm a little sweaty and gross but I wanted to talk while I was, well... I guess ripe would be a more appropriate term than fresh at that point, lol.
Take care folks!

BRAND NEW DAY!

IT'S A BRAND NEW DAY AND I'M MOTIVATED!

     Thanks to Leah Remini, I have been forced to pull my head out of my ass and take a serious look at my physical condition and how it affects my everyday life.  What's Leah got to do, got to do with it?  I have a secret obsession with Twitter.  I'm not proud of this but well, there it is.  I personally think that Twitter is the greatest thing ever invented for celebrities.  It's a way for them to safely interact with their fans on a case by case basis.  Anyway, I digress...

     The point of that was that I have been tweeting Leah Remini since she joined Twitter a week or two ago.  Nothing major, I'm not her new BFF or anything.  I welcomed her to Twitter and she, being the properly raised, down to earth person that she is, thanked me very politely.  I've made a few other comments to her, some of which she has replied to.  The day before yesterday, I asked her if I could make a suggestion for a topic for her new show.  She said yes and to bring it, so I did.

     What I told her (and I'm paraphrasing here, you are welcome to check out the actual verbiage on my twitter if you like) was that one of the biggest resentments moms have toward celebrities is their personal trainers.  I can't even tell you how many times I've heard the following, "Well of course she looks fabulous, she can afford a personal trainer and fancy gyms and equipment.  If I made that kind o money, I'd look fabulous too!"

     So Leah replied, saying it was a great topic and asking if I thought it was really a monetary issue or was it more an issue of motivation?  To which I replied that the majority of us believe that if we had the money to afford a personal trainer, they would take care of the motivation factor for us.  She pretty much felt that was BS and that the thinking behind that was simply me, stopping me, that my state of mind was more to blame than my pocketbook and furthermore, Sonya... walking is free.  

     *Sidenote: My mother says that and she has dropped a lot of weight over the years, simply by walking. 

     This made me stop in my tracks.  Gods love her and her "New Yorker tell it like it is"  way of being, Leah is right.  There is absolutely no excuse for me to be in the condition I'm in and the only person who is going to change that is me.  I don't think I ever wanted it badly enough before, but I'm taking this as a challenge and I will be popping in a video log, if not a blog, every day.  Leah is being very supportive, Gods love her:

     I suppose when this works I will owe her a debt of gratitude... perhaps I'll have to be a lifelong fan or something.  

     Vigilant reader, please, if you see a day go by without a vlog or a blog posted, email me at sylvarwolf@hotmail.com, find me on facebook under Sonya Wolf or on Twitter under SonyaSylvarWolf and give a shout, because this is too important not to take seriously.

Oh and Leah, if you read this, 

How about a phone call on my birthday, May 20th, 2011 to congratulate me if I manage to bring my weight down to a healthy 125 or less? 
Anyway, here's my first video log.  Be kind, I don't know what the hell I'm doing and I'm sure it shows.

Food for thought.