DAY 10 - DOUBLE DIGITS!!!

     I made it to the double digits!!!  So we celebrated reaching double digits by eating almost zero carbs all day (except some berries) and we had a building neighbor party.  We ordered pizza and watched The Spy Next Door.  I thought I had prepared for having pizza by keeping my caloric intake so low all day and keeping my carbs super low.  The thing is, I don't think celebrating a diet accomplishment with crappy food is the right thing to do.  It just didn't FEEL like I was celebrating.  It kind of felt a little like I was backpaddling.  I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting but I don't think pizza is in my edible future anymore.  Oh well.  I think I can say that I have eaten enough pizza in my lifetime, so it's not like it's something I've missed out on.
     I have had 36 years of eating whatever I wanted and I have the extra weight to prove it.  I need to remember that if I'm going to change my life, I need to change my thinking about things as well.  This is totally uncharted territory for me but I think for the next 30 odd years I'm going to do the opposite.  I'm going to eat for fuel more so than flavor.  At least for a while.  I've tasted all of the unhealthy foods (pretty much) that are available in the world.  I've tried everything and now it's time to try being healthy; looking and feeling good in my own skin.
     The point is, I think I made a mistake yesterday by rewarding myself with food.  I think next time I will reward myself with a nice, hot bubble bath and a book AWAY from Ninny.  Or reward myself with a trip to the movies or the museum and ask my neighbor to watch Ninny for me... Or maybe I'll reward myself with a trip to Tattered cover.  That's how my mom used to reward me when I was a kid... worked then, just might work now!
     Anyway, lesson learned.  See you tomorrow.

DAY 9 - A SUPER STRESSFUL DAY!

Okay folks, so today (which is actually yesterday at this point) was super stressful.  I know I promised a blog and video log a day and I did do my video log yesterday, but i was having internet issues and couldn't get it to upload to save my life.  Not to mention that:
1. Ninny woke up yesterday at like 6 am. 6 in the freaking morning and would not go back to sleep to save my life or workout.
2. Ninny refused to take a nap... ALL DAY.
3. I had a midterm due last night by midnight, that I ended up having to get an extension on because my internet froze up while trying to log into it.
4. I had a 4 page specific paper due in my Criminal Law class that I couldn't get to upload because it kept timing out.  Add to this the fact that Qwest doesn't have an afterhours troubleshooting, "I have a GD problem with my internet and you jerks need to fix it" number and I was ready to pull out my hair last night.
I didn't get my workout in until LATE last night and as a result I felt down all day yesterday and really had to force myself to get that workout in and now it's time for today's workout because Saints be praised the child is still asleep.  I'm going to go close her door and kick it into high gear here!

And last nights video log that wouldn't upload last night!

DAY 8 - A HAPPY NAKED DAY!

     Today was a damn good day!  I worked out, I had a decent breakfast and a super cool salad for lunch.  Let me tell you about the salad, cuz it was cool!
I mixed romaine lettuce with a few grape tomatoes, some sliced green bell peppers, sliced red peppers, sliced carrots and (here's where it gets fun) sliced strawberries and a sliced apple as well.  Then I George Foreman'd a chicken breast and shredded it over the salad, then I sprinkled I tablespoon of grated parmesan and tossed a few (about a tablespoon) of fat free croutons... then I drizzled balsamic over the whole mass and chomped it down.  It was Good!  I wasn't sure about the strawberries and apples with the balsamic but it was amazingly good!!!  All of the flavors mixed together made for a delicious and very filling salad!  In fact, I wasn't really even hungry for supper, which is amazing in and of itself.  Anyway, Ninny and I played half the day away and it felt good.  I spent some time reading and studying and I even finally watched the episode of Fringe I had been trying to watch for two days.  Leah is STILL being super supportive and amazing, which blows me away a little but I am also getting support from some friends and family members as well.  I am amazed and feeling fully grateful and blessed by all the support I've been getting from so many people, friends, family and even strangers.  I thank all of you and I assure you that this journey will not be possible without that support.  I also would like to say that if and when any of you decide to make a life change, I will fully be here for you as well.  In fact, if anybody else wants to come along with me now, I would totally welcome you with open arms!
Here's a crazy photo just for fun on this happy naked day:

Have a great and Happy Naked Day!

And here's the video log for today!  Have a great night and we'll see you tomorrow!!

DAY 7 - DISCOURAGED AND UNMOTIVATED

     So today was the day I was dreading.  Not today specifically, but today's mindset.  I just was NOT feeling it today.  I was not feeling working out, I was not feeling eating healthy, I was not feeling motivated.  I forgot to turn the alarm back on again, so I woke up late again and just did not want to do my workout.  Also I really wanted cereal.  I almost hyperventilated when I had to go WIC grocery shopping.  The thing is, the food is for Ninny, so I HAVE  to buy 36 ounces of cereal and 2 gallons of whole milk and a half gallon of juice.  There is no flexibility there and those bastards keep track, so if you don't buy something, when you go back in, they want to know why you didn't buy it and how you are nutritionally supplementing your child's diet alternatively and it makes the whole process take four times as long.  Generally, I've been drinking Ninny's juice, because her doctor says that juice isn't good for her anyway and she eats a LOT of fruit besides... However, I can't do that anymore because the juices are so high in carbs that I just can't incorporate it into my diet anymore.  Anyway, the point is that in the last 30 hours, I've had to grow some freaking willpower out of nowhere and it's really difficult.  Anyway, I made it through today, I did my workout and I'm good to go... to sleep, anyway.  Let's hope the insomnia of the last two days doesn't plague me again tonight.  I promised some photos, so I will throw them on here:

 This is Ninny's strawberry cream cheese omelette and toast with strawberry slices on it.  She had milk with her breakfast.

 This is my strawberry cream cheese omelette with 10 grapes and 1 slice of toast.  I had Celestial Seasonings Morning Thunder Tea and a big glass of water with mine.

 This is my turkey sandwich with a slice of provolone and a salad.  With this meal I had Celestial Seasonings Red Zinger Tea and another big glass of water.

 

Now see?  This is what I'm talking about. Which glass of water looks more appealing to you?

The v log and just before midnight!  Yay me!

DAY 6 - WORKING OFF THE DAMN CEREAL

     So I did my workout today and then I walked around the block and went up and down the stairs several times in order to work off the damn cereal I ate yesterday.  Did a bunch of reading for my human sexuality class and played princess dress up with Ninny.  Shut up.  We had fun. I also washed my super cool little cuisinart that Chelsea gave me last night because she's the super de duper coolest sister ever.  Not just because of that, she's pretty super duper anyway, but the cuisinart made for the extra little de in the super DE duper.
     In other news, my right shoulder is starting to hurt.  Stupid fracking injury.  Don't worry, I'm not stopping even for a minute because of it.  Once again, Leah took a moment out of her super busy day to throw a little encouragement my way.  I wonder if she has any idea the kind of impact she's having just with that... it helps so much.
     Some of my friends and family are rallying their support as well.  My cousin Susan reads this blog and watches my video logs every day and has been super encouraging as well.  Apparently, so does my sister, lol.  My mom sent me workout clothes and some of my friends have taken it upon themselves to text me in the morning to make sure I'm awake.  I've gotten numerous tips from everyone, some of which I will use and all of which I appreciate.
     I took some photos of Ninny's and my breakfast this morning, it was awesome and it even looked good.
I'm super tired though and a spider just crawled under my desk quicker than I could kill him and now I can't think about anything but the spider under my desk crawling on me, so I will add them to this blog tomorrow.
Have a good night!